Someone

“Sometimes all I really want to do is sit beside you. I want to watch cheesy and crappy movies with you, and we will laugh at them together. I want to plan things with you, things we’ll never do, but for some reason just planing them with you is fine with me. I want to talk to you about everything and anything. I want to goof around with you and make jokes that aren’t funny but we’ll laugh nonetheless.”

I found this quote the other day while I was stumbling, and it had no name attributed to it*. Even though I didn't say this, I feel like I could have. It's so beautifully simple, and it sums up how I'm feeling right now. There's someone who just makes me feel stupidly happy whenever I think about them**. They shouldn't, as there's been no sign that they want to be any more than friends. I just can't help myself. Every time I get a message from this person, or talk to them, I get all smiley.

I have no idea what will happen in the future, or if anything will even happen. For all I know, we'll just be friends. Nothing more than friends who spend time together, and laugh a lot, and talk to each other through the years.

Or maybe we'll be friends now, and as we continue to grow up, we'll grow apart. We won't get rid of each others contact information, as we intend to call each other "some time soon," but we don't, and we grow old and losing contact with each other is one of our major regrets.

Or maybe we'll fall in love, get married, and grow old together, planning things that may or may not happen, and watching movies together, appreciating the good ones and mocking the bad ones. We'll laugh at things that aren't funny, but we're not laughing because we're amused. We're laughing because we're sharing that moment with each other. We're laughing because we're together, and there's nothing that can stop us.


* I didn't want to break the fluidity I was feeling up there, but if you know who said this quote, please let me know so I can credit them.

** Don't ask who I'm talking about, please. Chances are, if I wanted you to know, you'd know already.

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There are so many good things out there that we have to be thankful for. All manner of things that give us warm, fuzzy feelings inside. One of those things that I have had the immense joy of experiencing is the blossom of a new friendship. When you talk to someone that you've known for a while, but never really talked to. The moments of discovery as you find out that you have different things in common, things that you thought we're probably unique to you. The moments when you begin to open up to one another, sharing bits a pieces of yourselves. Nothing big to begin with, but as time goes on, you share more and more of yourself.

Sometimes it's intentional. You see something that person left, a writing, or a drawing, or an idea shared with you by someone else. You think that this person is someone you might like to get to know better.

Other times it's just crazy random happenstance. As yo go through your day, you cross paths with someone else, and they leave a footprint inside you. You find the shared interest, the thing that ties the two of you together. You begin there, and from that point spreads ideas, jokes, and good times.

Oftentimes you won't be able to tell which it was.

I challenge you to look around you and find a friend. Now pinpoint the moment you became friends with them. Not the first time you spoke, necessarily. Just the first time you thought of them as a friend, rather than an acquaintance. If you're anything like me, you can't.

I wrote an essay for a writing class last semester about how friendship is like a plant. How you can look at it every day and barely see the growth. But when you look back on what it looked like at the beginning, and how you now have a beautiful plant, well, I think friendship is pretty similar.

I just wanna take this moment to thank all the people who have grown plants with me. I wouldn't be who I am without you all.